I\’m on the Road

Leaving Home
I\’m on the road with my two backpacks. 
I didn\’t plan on leaving this early, on foot. It\’s time to go on my adventure. I need to clear my head and move forward without relying on family and friends for support. I need to find my way by myself.
I\’m fifty-five years old, my soulmate and best friend died of a sudden massive heart attack almost four months ago.
Last night, I had a dream, that Scott picked me up and took me on a trip somewhere. I don\’t know where we were going.
I don\’t know where I am going as I write this post. I do know Scott is with me in spirit.
Walking to check into my first motel on this journey, I felt alone and sad. I grieved for what was and will never be.
Along the way, my backpack was so heavy, that I found myself discarding bits and pieces of my life I\’ve collected this last four months reminding me of Cheryl Strayed writing about \”Monster\” her backpack she carried like a turtle on her back in her best selling book  Wild: From Lost to Found on the Pacific Crest Trail.
How did I know I would be doing the same thing, only I would be much older and walking city streets leaving gifts like bread crumbs behind me. Only there is no one following me, to rescue me. I am the one that will need to rescue myself.
I smile thinking of the people who will find a brand new sketch book, a book called \”The Intuitive Way\”, a heavy burgundy sweater that Scott picked out for me at Cabellas, and the expensive facial cream in the fancy packaging that was weighing too heavy in my pack.
This evening, I will research modes of transportation to start the first leg of this journey. Rental car? Train? Bus? Feet? Plane?
I have no idea where this journey is taking me or how long I will be traveling.
I have no answers. I will dream on it. And do my research.
Tonight, there is an inviting Mexican Restaurant across the street with tables outside. From there, who knows.



Published by As the Road Wanders

Travel Blogger and Traveler

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